Would you rather ride the train, dance in the rain or feel no pain?
Maybe not as adventurous in its literal sense, but I think I’m the type who rides the train. I’ve been enjoying travelling. I’m always on-the-go, always feeling anxious to do or go from point A to B. If this psychological question I got from the movie “The Recruit” is designed to provide what best pertains to my personality, I’d take the first choice. I’m a wayfarer, a soujorner, a globe-trotter. Sadly, I’m also away from my family and other love ones. I leave things behind and always looking forward to my direction.
But, if it’s giving an option of what I wanted to be or do, I sure want to splish splash, be silly and dance in the rain. Worry sits comfortably in the living room of my brain, and that worry always let the trouble in everytime it knocks on my door. I want to just let go, get rid of attachments, expectations, fear, control and entitlements. I do, am a type of a person who sits his problems and prolongs it. But I never learn to embrace inconveniences. I’m cautious all the time. I want to just do, and not always think. I want to make mistakes, and not just always by fault. I would love not to save face, and not be bothered by judgments. So yeah, my answer is …I would rather not hide under the shade, play around as I please and just dance in the rain.
‘Cause NO, I do not have a thick skin. I can admit I’m not tough. My strength is my weakness. And I’m not cold. I do not have a nerve to inflict, the nose to pry nor the eye to lie. And no, I do not want to be completely devoid of suffering. It’s where you learn from, what you grow into. I want to be able to see my blood sprouting when I get wounded. I’d be always nice to know I can get support whenever I needed help. I do not want to be forever brave and rough. I don’t want to feel no pain, it’s not something that I am and it’s not someone I wanted to be.
I just now realized, I think these choices tie to a common bond … Freedom.